Did i lose myself?
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Seems like for past few months i have either had the cold, stones, cough, anti-insomnia or allergies to the pollen, or the swollen eccentrics or an 'colourworld' combination of these.
Suffice it to say, I've been a little off.
Still though, I am increasingly feeling like the only sane person surrounded by a lot of insane and insensitive people. Wonder if makes me more 'separate' or does it brings in me the more of me. With sanity all elusive around ya, u sure climb the ladder of maturity with high flux. It brings in a different flavour, a different whiff. Reminds me of a very nice pal of mine at my first work. Though smart and brainy, she just never got out of her insanity and finally compromised to live in the whirlpool of the normal mind. Little appreciations from people mattered more to her than her own. Still a good friend of mine, she is light years away from my real self. Hmm.. i shud sm day blog more, not to be read by others but to understand myslf more. Ha! Then they say that how can two people who live together all the time cant understand each other fully! Cmmon! Do u understand urslf? The ONE with whom u spent every single sec !
Do I know who I am and what I want? Well if I say yes, i may be lying like any other human around me, its almost as if I am wandering through the thick fog that surrounds the people I love and care about. Can I penetrate the fog? Do I want to? Or am I better off alone in my own world?
Pyaas!! Here i Come...
posted by Jas @ 11:44 PM,
